So I did the deed and moved in with him, yeah it was a cold day in hell, that's why I took to drinking, because it helped to anaesthetise me, and of course some cocaine to ease all the pain! lets just say living in my man made prison was almost bearable with the help if these substances,cause lets be honest, It was just another descent into hell but with a different Devil..
Talking about different Devils you know just before I left my family home, or should I say was thrown out of my family home the repo man turned up to repossess, my Range Rover, I told you I didn't own anything, and because Agent of chaos did not want me to possibly have access to anything he made sure everything was on HP ironic isn't it when your a multi millionaire! The lengths he went to so that he could control me! and yet people were stealing from him all the time, on a huge fooking scale, and I'm talking thousands, and here he was more concerned with controlling little old me! I guess that goes back to my triangulation post! were I mention, that because these peoples lives are so chaotic and out of control they have to focus on one thing they can control! and gee! I guess I was the chosen one!
So, because Agent of Chaos had the car taken from me I managed to sell some of my jewellery and purchase a small vehicle of my own, but when Captain Creepy saw my car, he was having none of it "you cant drive about in that - no freaking way I am going to buy you another Range Rover" aaahhhhhhh!! FFS no! I thought, even then with my skewed thinking, I knew this was not going to end well, and of course it was on HP so go figure ha! and he made me take my private registration of the car and put it on the range rover, and because he traded in his van to get me the range rover, that left him with no transport so of course I felt obliged to go trade in my car and get him another van, Ironic eh! everything he gave me saw me giving back just as much! what a fooking predicament, and chaotic to say the least! he was so impulsive and never thought about anything not even the HP repayments which he really could not afford, but hey ho! if Agent of Chaos could buy me a range Rover so could he! and who cares if we have to live on bread and water as long as we look cool as fuck! while we are doing it ha!
So as I mentioned, I moved into his house and tried to make it a home for the sake of my son the only saving grace was Captain C worked offshore so we were only going to see him for half the year thank fook for that! there was a God after all, or so I thought. A couple of days later, after my moving in, he had to go away for which I breathed a sigh of relief, and you would think I would've got some respite with him being away! are you shitting me this is when he upped his game calling me constantly! and I am talking 50-60 times a day, face timing me as well, and demanding I have phone sex with him OMG what the hell have I got myself into! I mean his sexual appetite was huge when he was at home as he wanted sex all the time!, so I thought I would get peace when he went away how wrong was I?
"Come back Agent of Chaos" he never wanted sex with me at all! as he was always too busy having sex with prostitutes!
Oh! the mind of a sociopath eh! twisted and warped beyond belief, and let me tell you, this there is no saving them, no rehabilitation, so if you're in a relationship with one please seek help,or if possible run like fook, as they will destroy your life, I am 50 years old now, and having to rebuild my life and it's been really hard..
Living in continual chaos is exhausting,and frightening. The catch is that its also very addictive
(Lorna Luft)
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