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Merry fooking Christmas



I thought I would share with you all just how much freaking fun, social events are when your in a relationship with someone who has an anti social personality disorder, well I suppose the word antisocial is a bit of a give away "looool"

I mean it was bad enough with my last partner who would ruin every birthday every Christmas, and any other celebration you dared to partake in, I once asked Agent of Chaos why he did so! and he said to me "well my father ruined all our social events".. "well, fookface all the more reason for you not too" some people are too far gone though! there ain't no saving them, is there?

So as it goes Christmas was fast approaching and Captain Cunto, I mean Captain Creepy informed me that he had to work!

And guess what I breathed a sigh of relief, he was not going to be here whoop! fooking! woop! the vibration had just lifted, so I invited my mum and my daughter and her boyfriend, and Captain C invited his father even though he was not going to be there, strange, I know! but I wasn't bothered because he declined anyway!said something about spending it with his daughter!
 So just for the record, I really love Christmas, and why wouldn't I? its my birthday! I bought loads of food and drink and presents and I was all set for a nice Christmas, with my nearest and dearest, and I was having a nice time until I looked at my phone and there must of been about 80 missed calls and a load of vile text messages saying "I hope your fooking enjoying yourself in my fooking house without me!" "you fooking bitch, and when I get home you can pack your fooking bags and get the fook out of my house"" how dare you not answer the phone to me!" I bet its because your too busy fucking your daughters boyfriend! wtaf fucking my daughters boyfriend I kid you not that man was fooking in sane and yeah I had agreed to marry him! "Just Take me now God please!"
As you can imagine my heart just sank, and when I did manage to speak to him on the phone later that day, I was completely brow beaten into submission because he was right I was in his house and he had this power over me because my biggest fear ever, was being homeless! and he knew that and he lorded that over me, as you can imagine Christmas was ruined as he had managed to rip the fooking arse right out of it! Merry Fooking Christmas!

Well anyway, Christmas came and went and he, eventually came home, from his offshore trip, I tied to pretend to be ecstatic! so I had another line of coke, and a drink that always did it, Mind you I hated it when he fooking drank he was a complete and utter nightmare, he used to get really hyper like literally bounce of the fooking ceiling, must of  aggravated he ADHD.. and I would get no sleep at all, because  he was a complete sexual deviant, and because he thought he was doing me a favour by letting me live there, I was in his fooking debt, so I guess he assumed sex was on tap!! even Agent of Chaos would pay for a prostitute, but not this fooker!, he certainly treated me like one, I literally thought I was going to die some times for I could not breath, #panic attacks, well anyone would, if he was climbing on top off them every freaking minute of the day, I felt like I was seriously going to implode, and to make matters worse every time he did have a drink, he would go round to his fathers and fall out with him, I vividly remember the bust up he had with his father just after Christmas because, he strangled him! yep strangled him!
And If I remember rightly it was because he never came to me for his Christmas dinner, that would of really infuriated him! because, he would of wanted him to spy on me, because he was not there and because his father declined my offer he went round to the house wrapped his hands around his throat and throttled him, obviously he did not kill him! but that's the thing about perps who strangle they don't do it to kill you, they do it to let you know they can kill!

Fucked up shit eh! I know I was living with a walking time bomb, and the slightest thing could or would trigger him!        

I was on the defensive every time he came home, The sound of his car made me sick to my stomach because I knew I had to react to however he acted - And I never knew how he was going to Act! Anon..

     
   
     

  
  

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