"Come in he said I'll give you shelter from the storm, because living with me is nothing but the norm!"
Now I know I said I was bankrupt and that was the truth, but I still had some really expensive jewellery, which I could've sold and paid for a deposit on a rental property, oh! yeah I'm a twice fooking Bankrupt no one in their right mind is going to rent me a property are they! because, I'm a pariah, a social outcast and they do credit checks on you and want references!
Can you see the predicament I was in? I think they call it checkmate, I was fooked! but, looking back with hindsight, I would've managed I could've gone to my local council and asked them for help!, but do you know what! I was actually ashamed! because I had lived in this huge home, yeah I know my name was never on the property, because that's how sociopaths roll, more power to them!, in fact my name was not on anything be it the car or the bank account I pretty much did not exist, I was a fully pledged nonentity ha! #Financial Abuse
So my options were rather limited, well in my mind they were! and that's how I ended up living with Captain C! My lord and saviour, gives me chills just thinking about it!
I remember the day I moved to his place, he said he was going to hire a van and come with a workforce of about 4 men, "more lies", he turned up himself and expected me and one of my young sons to lift unimaginably weighty objects and when my son struggled he ridiculed him to the point of tears, that was the day I lost him to Agent of chaos because he was on the next flight out of there to wherever he was holed up! It says something, when you flee one sociopath to go live with another, hold the fook on, was that not what I was doing!
Mind you that was not the first awful incident that my son had endured at this fooking maniac's hands Oh! no because about a month earlier my son, had been out with a older boy in his car and he had just dropped my son off at the front gates of our home,but unbeknownst to any of us Captain C was hiding in the bushes outside. Bizarre, I know! and seemingly he jumped out from where he was hiding dragged my son's friend out of the car and headbutted him. Holy fuck there was blood everywhere and because my son was privy to this he was hysterical, as you would be. Captain C's reason for doing so, was, he said, that the older boy in question was snogging the face of my son! it was all lies of course, but can you see a pattern emerging? well that's good because I fooking couldn't, I just thought oh! nobody has ever looked out for my son not even his own father, yes it was maybe a little over the top but this guy really cares!! I told you my thought process was skewered OK fucked to be precise!
My daughter did not want to move with me either and she ended up sofa surfing on Friends' couches, so I pretty much lost her too. The only person who came with me was my youngest son to whom I still had a duty of care, as he was about 7 years old, and that was not looking good either because Captain C had already shown signs of jealousy towards him! So there you have it not only did I lose my home and any credibility I was still grasping on to, I lost my family that day as well, who would of thought that HELL HAS A BASEMENT? ...You better fooking believe it!!
I consider myself an intelligent woman so wtf was wrong with me! Oh yeah! see this was my life and this is what I deserved, or so I thought, because after so many years of being told "you're shit" you finally start to believe that some how you probably are! and all you deserve is nothing more than shit!
Mind you, on the flip side, I was kind of relieved to finally move, because before I did Captain Creepy had managed to fall out with all my neighbours. He fell out with the family that lived opposite my house because I had reversed my car and and on doing so nearly took the back end off my car off with these huge stone boulders they had placed at the entrance of their drive way. When I told Captain C of my mishap, he came round that evening and lifted these huge and I mean huge rocks into the back of his van and I'm telling you these fucking things would've needed about ten men to lift them. Yes! you figured it out Captain C had the strength of a mad man! and were going to see just how mad, he actually was!
"We are each our own Devil and we make this world our hell" - Oscar Wilde