"Corona Virus"

I was going to make this an uplifting post as I was doing so well with my healing, but its just a funny old time especially with this pandemic that we are all subject to!
I mean don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty insular kind a person these days anyway, what with living with my autistic younger son who, does not mix well with people due to his high levels of anxiety, and the fact that I myself, have retreated from the world in an attempt to work on my recovery, so Lock-down, In my house is not the new normal because it is fooking normal ha!
So while everyone was running about terrified about catching the virus, I was shitting myself about another Virus, Yep, I heard it from my oldest son, Agent of Chaos is on the vulnerable list, hell yeah! he's only gone and got himself Hepatitis B, rife amongst prostitutes, now I cant imagine how he could of contracted that could you!
But here's the thing Have I fooking got it? because it wouldn't be the first time, this dirty manky fooker has given me something OMG! now I'm shitting myself lets face it if you get Hep B Its's like getting HIV, I'm not saying its's a death sentence anymore but I do believe you would have to take drugs for the rest of your life and then there's all the freaking symptoms that go with it, like jaundice, fibromyalgia, suppressed immune system, holy fook kill me now why don't you!
And do you know what If I'm honest, I know I have not been feeling right for a long time, going backwards and forwards to the quack complaining of all kinds of bloody ailments! Omg I have it I know!
So I have to calm myself the fook down I say, "come on this is not the best thing that's ever happened to you! but it sure as shit is not the worst!
And with that little pep talk to oneself I call the Doctors surgery, and explain my situation the receptionist, told me the nurse in charge of blood tests would call me back, and about an hour later I got a phone call asking me to attend the surgery, for this so called blood test,So I go in and wait in the waiting room it seems like an eternity, and then she appears, Nurse fooking Ratchet, I kid you not she looked just like the nurse on one flew over the cuckoos nest a real freaking peach she was! with a lovely bedside manner are you aving a fooking! laugh she was a prized Cunt! that made me feel like a piece of shit on the bottom of her shoe!
"You do know there is an epidemic going on don't you" "yes I know" "even if you are infected no one will help you!, no one can do anything until after this virus has passed! is she for fooking real! I then said if I have this virus its not going to be a fleeting one I shall have it for life! and she in return said "well nobodies interested" WTAF  I replied with"well maybe I should not have come then! "Oh no she said if you are infected medical staff will need to know for their safety! I cant believe what I'm hearing they all need to fooking know, for their safety!  fook you bitch! so what am I? just a dirty Skank hoe! that sleeps around! that's when I said "If I have it I contracted it, was from husband of 20 plus years, and no I did not sleep around it was him! why the fook am I explaining myself to this dumb ass bitch!
I swear to fook I was so proud of myself, that day, as I had full restraint, and did not, I repeat, did not retaliate to this ignorant fookwit  that is in the wrong fooking job, don't worry Nurse fooking Ratchet your on the list, speaking to people like that, people that are already  terrified, triggered and nervous about even being there in the first place! #Medical ombudsman's for you love!

So after my visit to the Doctors I went home and tried to forget about it! but how the fook could I? even worse I have to wait two weeks for freaking for the results, Oh my days! and that's not even the worse thing, when I last seen Agent of Chaos he was bragging to me about him taking our eldest son with him to frequent the Whore House, and made some sick tongue in cheek joke, about sharing the same prostitute, When he seen I was disgusted, by this statement he retracted somewhat and said "well not at the same time obviously!"
You might say I felt sick to the bottom of my stomach, even though my son assured me that he took precautions! it still did not sit well with me as a mother! every time I try and pick up the pieces of my life I am reminded in some way of the awful past I shared with this man! will I ever be free I ask myself!

I tried not to dwell on, things and the two weeks soon passed, then I received the phone call I had been waiting for, the receptionist said my results were in but I was going to have to wait until the Monday, as the  Doctor will give you them!, it was only Friday so, a few more days, wow talk about keeping you on the edge! The thing was it was already sounding bad when she said the Doctor wants to speak to you! So I gave myself another Pep talk, and said "you've got this, whatever the outcome is" So when Monday arrived and the Doctor called! He said "we have good news, "you do not have Hep B!" phew! I thought what a relief, then he said "but you did have it!" No, that cant be so, you don't recover from that" I replied, well you did he said and now just like an immunisation, you will never contract it again! OMG I couldn't quite take it all in, thank you Jesus! It sure looks like someone was looking down over me! maybe I was right, about my luck slowly changing, but by fook the universe sure, does like to put me through the wringer first, almost like a test of endurance, so that I never ever go down that path again!

There is no fear on that one I ain't putting myself and my body through anything like that again, it's that true saying isn't it, if you lie down with dogs you get fleas!
Thank God I have adopted a more healthy lifestyle, with no drink or drugs, or dirty men! and the only thing I partake in is copious amounts of vitamins, which is a saving grace because the outcome could have been so different.
And now that the scare of that has passed I have pondered, over the fact, this bit of karma was not  sent for me! of that I'm sure,  Oh no! this was for Agent Of Chaos, as this is what comes about when you have a penchant for prostitutes, that you sleep with, without a condom, behind your wives back! then run about infecting everyone with the highly infectious disease, regardless of the consequences! Look's like someones past is catching up with them!

Speaking about the past catching up with him, well, the word on the street is not only does he have to live with that disease, but it turns out he has to live with looking over his shoulder too, because apparently, when he left the Middle East he left there under a real black cloud, as he fraudulently, sold his company to, not one person, but about three different individuals, and pocketed millions in deposits, wow! just wow! you couldn't make this shit up could you! nothing ceases to amaze me with that fooker! I'm telling you if that disease does not finish him off! I think somebody will!! As I would not be surprised if there is a fooking hit taken out on him....     

HE WHO CONCEALS HIS DISEASE CAN NOT
EXPECT TO BE CURED

PROVERB 28:13