"Retribution"

Who say's nothing happens on lock down, whilst a pandemic is going on! not in  my case, there is always something happening!  ha! but I guess this was something good for once, well its's kinda bitter sweet I guess, So as you know, having been abused for over twenty years by two men as you know as Agent of Chaos & Captain Creepy, there was nothing surer that I was going to make a claim for Personal Injuries, and low and behold three years on I get a letter finally in the post, with a settlement offer, and of course I was delighted but it was not so much about the money, but because my voice had finally been heard, saying that it was only for the abuse with Captain Creepy, because he had sexually assaulted me, the jury is still out on the Agent of Chaos abuse which is fooking ironic because he reign of terror went on for twenty years.
But, I am happy with the outcome for now! as it validates that this man was indeed a real predator, that should come with a fooking health warning!
The thing is I should not concern myself with him anymore and nor do I, but I know he's out there and has indeed moved on to his next victim and bizarre as it sounds it's a woman that know's me! and knows my back story, so for the love of fxck! I do not know what she is thinking! but I will not contact her, because it only looks like I'm this disgruntled ex, but surely the fact I have been compensated for the atrocities, he did to me, speak for itself! but there is no telling some people I guess, they have to find out for themselves besides it's not like anybody saved me! did they?

So as I said I will fight on with regards to the Agent of Chaos case, as it's more than likely it will have to go to a Tribunal!.. and whilst I'm on the subject of Agent of Chaos, the funny thing is the police only called me the other day and said they were indeed looking for him. fook know's wot for! and did I know his whereabouts? and I said same place as he was last time!, and they so made me laugh cause the officer said yeah we have been doing our door to door inquiries with all his relatives! ha! ha! ha! I then said I don't mean to be fxcking rude hear, but you have been going round all his relatives saying your looking for him! well don't you fxcking think that is a big red flag, for him never to come back to the UK? "Oh yeah" the officer replied  ... Oh my fooking days! can you believe that! cause I couldn't!! ha!

I almost forgot, it's all happening Captain Fooking Creepy, only went and got his house repossessed by the fooking Bank! I know couldn't have happened to a nicer person could it! I't's that Karma thing again isn't it! and I know I shouldn't laugh, but he took great delight in relishing in all my misfortune when I was made homeless, Well the low life piece of shit only ended up living In a shed of all places! I know ha!ha! you couldn't make it up! I could not contain myself! it was the best piece of news I have had in a long time, you see karma does come for you in the end, because whatever energy you put out there, it will come back and either reward you or destroy you!

The thing is with Captain Creepy, if I am truly honest, was that it was not just a chance meeting on a dating website that led me to him Oh! no! I had actually grown up in the town, where he lived in, so I kinda knew of him!, not to much though as he had lived quite a sedate life with his wife of about 20 years until she of course filed for a divorce, for all the abuse, and got a restraining order on him!
But, our paths kept crossing as I had seen him heaps of times on the dating website as his profile kept popping up, and he of course had messaged me a few times but at that moment in my life I was off men! then for some reason he disappeared, and I never thought anything of it! until one day I was on the train coming back from my Law Course and meets this girl who knew a mutual school friend of ours well she was no friend!, but I shall reveal all in a minute, so girl on the train told me that he had actually got engaged to this so called mutual school friend, "well that must of been quick cause I only saw him on the dating website a couple of months ago if that", and she said "it was!"

Anyhoo! a few weeks pass and I'm on line checking all my messages from all my admirers ha! and up pops Captain Creepy again! I'm like WTAF I thought he was engaged to that fooking bitch! I went to school with, so curiosity, got the better of me and this time I messaged him back I said "I thought you were all Loved up" He said "I was but she did the dirty on me and I called it a day with her" yeah that sounds like the bitch I went to school with! I know wot your thinking now, I'm being harsh on her well this female made my life a living hell she was one of the reasons I literally never went to school in my senior years the thing is she was kinda popular, pretty almost, if you like that kinda thing! and I was the rather plain friend, that she got to humiliate and take cheap pot shots at, and I mean they were really heinous cruel things and because she was popular with the boys she got them to engage and say cruel mean hateful things to me as well, to which I just internalised and hated myself even more!  In fact it was her that brow beat me into losing my virginity at 13, then she laughed and ridiculed me afterwards, as it was some kinda sick game to her, you see she was very experienced when it came to sex as she had been sexually abused by her father at a very early age, so promiscuity was her middle name! saying that I think her father did hang himself, or shot himself I cant really remember,and nor do I want to! when it all came to light, so that equated in one rather fooked up individual, and of course as I attracted, all the dysfunctional people, I was on her radar and like the preadtor she was she seen the vulnerability in me! and projected all her nefarious shit on to me!It didn't end their though for some reason we remained friends even after school fxcked up I know, she would come to my flat and trash it, she had no respect for me,and when I took a job as stripper, she even ran about town berating me,even to my my mother and sister! and when I married Agent of chaos I asked her to be my bridesmaid even more fucked up I know, but she declined! the thing was I was no longer the plain friend the ugly duckling had merged into a swan, and god forbid I were to outshine her! she did come along to the wedding though, and still couldn't help herself hurling insults at me! saying I was too thin! even on my wedding day hey ho! fucking "Narcissistic bitch" and stupidly I even invited her to my home on many occasions for weekends where she would bring her kids, and yet she still ridiculed me calling me Ma larking #fat when I was pregnant! I remember one weekend in particular she came but she brought her so called boyfriend, nasty piece of work he was, he told me, that he had a bag of coke and if I liked he would rub it on my cunt and she would lick it off! I was so disgusted by them and the thing was they were supposed to be sleeping the night! but when I got up in the morning they had disappeared I think that was the last time I seen her thank fxck!

So when Captain Creepy found out exactly who I was the hunt was on, cause he knew she was my fooking nemesis, acuse she never shuts up about me! and that made me even more attractive #Two birds one bullet kinda thing!
and of course he pursued me!, and like a moth to a naked flame I was sucked into their fxcking #Hunger Games saying that this is not the first time I have been pursued by one of that fxcking bitches boyfriends, as I had another one try to reel me into their fxcked up web before, fxcking hell she must be so obsessed with me! when she's telling all these men every fxcking detail about me! get some fxcking help bitch, joking apart over the years, she's another one that has morphed into me! #scary, the bit I cant forgive is when that boyfriend of her's contacted me he obviously told her I was pursing him yeh! I know just a sick little game they played to make each other jealous, fooking whack Jobs! but instead of confronting me like the coward she is she confronted my young daughter who must of been all of 16 and she was terrified! that to me, is unacceptable and to think she works in the medical profession well that's' one fooker I shan't be clapping for!

So I guess, Captain Creepy for me had become even more attractive! and never one to shy away from the dark side! so I guess when he proposed to me not to long afterwards, I was duty bound to accept and I guess when he wanted to take me to Vegas to marry him! on the already wedding theme, him and that bitch had planned I felt obliged to step into the breech!ha! even though it was risque!

But When I look back on it all though, I know I was being played by him for fooks sake he has NPD and I was just an emotionally unstable pawn in the game, but I think, as I said subconsciously I knew it was a hit on that Bitch! because I had swooped right in and stole her soon to be husband, and as you know me by now I'm not one to pass up on a bit of Retribution! 

Revenge is more wild less calculated...deeply personal
Retribution is a punishment that is morally right
And fully deserved

-Vince Flynn