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"Agent of chaos"..




As you can imagine living in my particular town was like living in a gold fish bowl, the police at the door all the time, for one thing and another Captain C was accusing me of something different every other day it was unbearable, he was even going around telling every one I broke in to his home, and smeared my own shit all over his walls! and the next thing his dog died and I was being blamed for that also, I mean WTAF! and that's why I pleaded with them to check his police records for other misdemeanours that he had done, but they said "well you have left him now! there is nothing to concern yourself with!" dumb fooks! look at the statistics, your the mother fookers that are always asking for proof! that's when must women are killed is when they leave their abuser! OMFG! what is wrong with the police? they have no hesitation to turn up, evey five fooking mins to me, and accuse me all sorts, and  yet they believe,the likes of Captain C at the drop of a hat! no wonder our judicial system is fooked up! .. talking about our system ha!  the day  of reckoning was fast approaching and I was to go before the courts and answer to my make believe/fantasy wrong doing, you know the one were cunto smashes the window, and I get blamed, locked up and placed on bail yep! that one well of course I go before the magistrate and boom! it's admonished you know slap on the wrist and don't be a bad girl again kinda shit! It was freaking nuts, because I was at court at least once a week for something or other with regards to Capatain C, for about 6 months on the trot!,thy even knew me on first name terms in the court house, it was a joke and yet the police still did not want to take things seriously until one day he stupidly did it!, he made him self liable on his favourite place  good old FB and said he was going to kill me!, and I had him, and this time they had to take it seriously especial with all the other chain of events leading up to it.
I think in total  I had been in court with regards to him about 12 times up till then, my nerves were completely shot and I was pill popping like there was no fuxking tomorrow, uppers then downers anything to make me feel relatively normal, just as well the doctor I had was very empathetic.

Any way as I said I had another court case to attend, and I certainly did not want to face him, because I knew he would of tried his hardest to intimidate me, so there was a screen put in place, I was very vocal about that screen, because I had already been in court with him the week before, but you know courts! well the proceedings were cancelled, so I left the court and made my way into the centre of town, and he only followed me! making threats to kill me! wtaf is wrong with this man! he even followed me into the shop and I thought right I have him now because of the CCTV Cameras, and with that I called the police but when they went to check the cameras, they were not working that day! Oh! my god! he's like Agent of Chaos nothing ever seems to stick! and of course I had to go back to court a week later thank God, the out come was good! but does anybody really ever win in court? nope I covered that in the book #Court House Casino, there are no winners! not really as to much has already been sacrificed, the outcome was, if he were to come near me again it would indeed be a custodial sentence, you know the cheeky fooker even had the audacity, to go home and broadcast it all over FB how he won his court case against me!  and I was being a Drama Queen hiding behind a screen! Really! wot did you win fooker? do you know How stupid you sounded? you were in court for intimidating, abusing, and threatening to kill a woman so please tell me wot the fook it was you won? cause I was just finding it really hard to wrap my head around all your shit! and your still trying to berate me and run me down!
Fooking laughable isn't it?

I shall digress, so I am still living with Gin Joint Girl oh yeah! who is of course still drinking every night, bible in one hand gin bottle in the other, and I'm putting up with all Captain C's shit, police at the door every five minutes, and now there are detectives on my case to help them investigate my daughters ex boyfriend, the one that is ex military, and very disgruntled having been dumped, and has a fire arm in his possession, I had only been declared bankrupt for the second time, which in turn makes me officially homeless, and what little money I had left I invested in that business that Captain Cunto shut down..  I mean could my life really get any fooking worse, all I need is  for Agent Of Chaos to call me up and we have a full house "BINGO!" well you know that saying be careful what you wish for cause you just might just get it!, well, who calls me the fook up out of the blue but the man himself!
He's only seen the great big write up on the front pages of the newspaper and, he can not contain himself, he said it was like Jeremy Kyle Meets Jerry Springer, and if I'm honest it really did it was very satire ha! but that's the press for you isn't  it they just love to sensationalise everything don't they?

But you want to now what he wanted don't you? well, he wanted me to go abroad and see him, I know what your thinking! you think I am totally insane, by now don't you?, well,there is every chance if I had been accessed by a shrink at that time they probably would of certified me! straight jacket and all! I mean who flees one mad man for another mad man! = a mad woman that's who!
Obviously I did not say yes straight away but the more and more I thought about it the better it sounded, I was running away wasn't I? but what was I running too I didn't care, just as long as got a million miles away from the fooking madness that had become my life...

A NARCISSISTS CHECKLIST

CONFUSE
DEMEAN
INVADE
EXHAUST
WITHHOLD
FRUSTRATE
HUMILIATE
CRITICISE
WEAKEN DEFENCES
CONTROL
SLANDER








     
   
 

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