"Homeless"

So off I trot back to the UK God Knows what shit awaits me!, I actually thought going on that little trip was going to sort my head out I must of been fooking deranged, because I came back even more fooking confused than what I went, Mind you I had just been staying with The Agent of Chaos for nearly three weeks It wasn't any wonder my head was fooking minced!and besides, this was the man that had subjected me to terrible abuse over the years and threatened my life on many occasion, so it isn't any wonder my head was done in!

Anyway, I make my way back to Gin Joint girls, I come laden with duty free, she's not in the slightest bit grateful, but never mind, entitled people never are! or am a sensing an atmosphere! yeah that's more like it, something is going down here, and of course she is sitting an the fence and doesn't have the ball's to say it!, so she gets one of her minions to come to the house and tell me that she wants me to leave! I mean that was fair enough, as I had no intentions of staying anyway, but it was the way she went about it! mind you it wasn't any wonder she took that route as she was completely filled with guilt, because while I was away she had only stolen all my customers from the clinic she was overseeing for me!

WOW! just fooking WOW! there is no honour among thieves is there! that was the only thing I had left that gave me that little bit of hope, something to get up for in the morning, that one thing that said I was not a complete failure and there was Gin Joint girl, with an beautiful home a thriving business, and yet she took pleasure in crushing me, knowing I had nothing!, I really do attract the scum of the earth don't I? ... I had been nothing but a good friend to her, and I thought she wanted to be my friend too, because I sure needed one, but all the while she had an ulterior motive and that as I said was to steal my business!

Well as you can imagine I packed my bags, and I have never seen her again since, thank God!, with friends like that who needs enemies But it turned out she never kept the clinic anyways, cause by all accounts she was good at obtaining things but shite! at keeping them! a bit like my husbands! ,  but, my sentiments is though if it does not belong to you,  you do not get to keep it!...thing was I really was homeless! because as I mentioned my daughter had given up the lease on her flat, so I had to go along to my local authorities and officially declare myself homeless, fooking hell how did it come to this? from owning 4 homes! you know being homeless was always my biggest fear and what had I attracted? fooking homelessness!, its that Law Of Attraction thing isn't it what you think about you bring about! and I had certainly had done that because if you give doubt and fear that much power they are so fxcking hungry they will eat you alive!...

So they take me up to see one of there homeless shelters, I tell you something if I was not freaking suicidal before I went up there I sure as fook was after they showed me round! I just wanted to die this was my worst fxcking nightmare, it had finally come true!, mind you I was no stranger to being homeless because before I married Agent Of Chaos he was always throwing me out and I would have to stay in bed and breakfasts, and yet here I was 20 odd years later and history was still repeating itself,you think I would learn wouldn't you? I returned to my car after being shown round and I completely broke down, there was no consoling me I cried and cried and cried, and I could not stop!
I just thought to myself I could not live there not for love nor money I would kill myself! I mean if I hadn't been through so much  prior to this I probably could of, but I could not take any more! I was at the end of the tether ...

So I went to my sister's house and explained what had happened and she agreed to take me in I mean I had to sleep on her floor, but it was a small price to pay and besides I was kinda out of options by this point, So she helped me move my things in and I enrolled my son at the local school and I thought it was going to be OK, well how wrong was I!! this woman, that was supposed to be my sister, the woman that had come to my very large home every Christmas, with her daughter that was given a private wing of the house with her own bathroom, was now begrudging me a fooking space on her floor to sleep! Un fxcking believable! I had been so good to her over the years, I lost count of the things I had done for her, holidays abroad, furniture for her house, sky television, not to mention the emotional support, the list goes on and here I am in my hour of fxcking need, and if I am honest, I had never asked her for anything in my life before, and yet she was nothing more than the mother of all cunts to me! and my little boy!, the only thing I could think of was, probably because I was no more use to her, because I no longer had all the finery that went with my old life! it's true what they say! you sure do find out who your true friends are when your down on your luck!
I was really in a bad way mentally cause not only did I have her on my case, there was also Agent of Chaos nipping my head to get the charges dropped and Captain Creepy in the background stirring up the shit with regards to the car, as he had dragged me into court to reclaim His Range Rover, I said fair enough as long as gives back my vehicle that he has changed up!
So I Handed back his vehicle to the fiance company, as lets face it he couldn't afford a vehicle like that! he only bought me it to be upsides with Agent of Chaos, and then of course he then delivered my vehicle back ! well holy fook even writing this is given me a fxcking headache!
because it was a pick up truck and on the back of it he had tied my 20k white sofas that I had shipped over from the states on the back and they were covered in dog shit and urine and all kinds of funky  shit, and of course absolutely ruined, and OMG  when I opened the vehicle the inside was disgusting as well dog shit, urine, filth, cigarette burns, it was the worst possible state ever and of course I was liable for all this, as it was in my name! Just kill me now!     

YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER, MANY PEOPLE ARE HEARTLESS.
THEY WILL TAKE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE WORKED HARD
TO HAVE, WITHOUT CONSIDERING WHERE IT WILL LEAVE YOU!
MOST ARE OUT FOR THEM SELF.
HAVE BACK UP PLANS. BE PREPARED. AND MOST OF ALL, KNOW
HOW TO BE HAPPY WITHOUT OWNERSHIP OF ANYTHING!

EGYPT- THE GOODVIBE.CO