So I'm back on that treadmill, running hard and fast but never actually getting anywhere!, revisiting old ground and making the same fooking mistakes over and over again, you do know if you don't learn your lessons this time round on earth you will be sent back to fooking learn them all over again don't you! Please God give me the strength, the foresight, and the wisdom! to do so because I cant come back and relive all this again! That's the thing though, I wasn't ready to redeem my self I wanted to plunder on and fook it up a bit more ha! I've always been a slow learner comes of being a Capricorn, you know, ruled by Saturn the slowest moving planet that there is, we get there in the end but by fook wot a lot of shit we put ourselves through!, but by the end of it we are very wise, it isn't any wonder, ha! but that's usually because we have endured everything there is to endure! 10 tens over ha! cause we keep going back just to see if we get a different result, is that not the height of insanity? doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different result loool!
I forgot to mention in the last post, I was also being perused, by a finance company, because of non payment of the vehicle I had which Captain C had in his possession, and they were getting pretty mob handed about it so of course I had to call the police, there come back was "fook all to do with us! speak to the finance company" OMFG of course, I did so and they were pissed! and told me they were taking me to court, not the fook again!, I should just take up freaking residency in that court house as I am never away from it! do you see why I swear so much this would test the patients of a saint!
It was fooking insane, and do you know what, they went to court but he still would not give the vehicle back in-fact he chained it up and chained the gates of his house up as well aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!! Then he upped his fooking shit again but this time getting other people to send me pictures of him smashing up my daughters saxophone with a hammer, of course I told the police and they said I had to prove the saxophone was mine, so I went fooking detective, found some pictures of my daughter playing it even contacted the place I bought from, and they still did fook all about it!! then he went live on FB standing round an old oil container flames belching out of it laughing like a mad man that he his!burning all my photos of all my children as babies, things that I could never replace! #Sick individual, then he took all my furniture out of his house, and sat it in the driveway, for six months in the rain the hail and the snow till it was fooked! to which I could no get because the gates are all chained up! and there was nothing in law that I could do either because that's the way our system works!
So excuse the fook out of me if I hopped on a plane and got the fook out of there! because anywhere had to be better that living in that freaking melting pot!"
Yep I had got a phone call from some insurance guy that used to deal with all Agent of chaos' financially shit, and he said he had a cheque for me for a few grand and I guess that was for my ticket out of there!
I mean don't get me wrong I was running away!, and fook knows what I was running too! but, as you have gathered risque destructive behaviour is my forte!, saying that, Agent of chaos, did have my eldest son with him, and of course I was dying to see him! cause I had not seen him in a couple years, because Captain Creepy had managed to scare him the fook away like he does everyone else cause he's a fookin nutter! not that you hadn't noticed! So I booked my flight for myself and my youngest son, and informed Gin Joint girl I was going for a couple of weeks to which I was met with great enthusiasm, strange! in-fact she even gave us a lift to the train station, in my range rover of course and she said she would park it in her driveway, safe and secure! she very accommodating, even offered to oversee a, small business interest that I had still managed to keep hold of, cosmetic clinic I ran once a month, it wasn't much I know, but it still made me feel some self worth! having lost everything else!
So off we went, fook me I had not even made it to my destination and the jungle drums were beating, Gin Joint girl, was only driving the Range Rover, up and down past Captain C's driveway and he was losing his shit!, cause although he bought it for me, he wanted it back, no shit! but of course he had my vehicle and it was chained up, and the finance company wanted that back! and he was point blank refusing to give it back! it's confusing isn't it, but this is what people with personality disorders are like chaos chaos and more freaking chaos!
So he takes to the place he likes best his platform FB and descends into this mad rant, and there are pictures of him constructing these huge billboards, quoting extracts from the bible and of course implicating Gin joint girl, and these posters where massive! and then when he was done he resurrects them on his chained up gates for the whole world to see! OMFG and boom madness descends! and then once the lids off! Gin Joint girl denies any wrong doing, and then starts playing the victim saying "OMG you have put me in a terrible position by leaving your vehicle in my possession, while you go out of the country," "no you dumb bint, no one knew I was leaving the country other than you! and no one needed to see you driving that Range Rover, but you wanted a reaction you wanted to cause trouble and now its world war and you cant cope! you brought this about yourself!" and of course he is no threatening her and she is shitting herself and it's all my fault!, all she needed to do was keep her mouth shut! how difficult was that!
So having arrived at the airport of my destination, I turn my phone on again, and I have been Informed by Gin Joint girl that Captain C has this huge post up about me going to visit my dying Ex husband, so that I can steal his millions! Ha! would that be the millions he stole from me! ironic, but do you know whats even more ironic is the fact he knew all this information, so of course I challenged Gin Joint girl her reply was that she, just wanted to shut Captain C down and wipe the smug look of his face as he was flaunting his new squeeze, masturbation girl, in everyone's face, "I don't fooking care please do not tell him any of my business as he will just use it against me FFS" ...As I said at the beginning of this post, you have to learn your lessons and by fook they keep getting thrown in my path so I came to the conclusion the only way out is through,#Shakespeare... I have to go through all this shit so that I can find my way out and I pray to God, and you know I more spiritual that Godly, but I pray it wont be to long!
HourGlasses
I fucked up!.
And where a lot of us fuck up- I waited
I waited for him to come around
I waited to see if things would get better.
I waited to see if he would become the man that I imagined
him becoming.
All of this fucking waiting, and before I knew it a bunch of
years had passed me by, and I was still doing the same old shit...
Waiting...-Anon
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